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Autism And Having Your Needs Disregarded

I feel as though since I turned 18, my mom thinks the problems I had with autism went away. So many people are under the impression that autism stops at 18, your problems stop at 18 which is not true. Autism does not drop off the face of the earth when you turn 18. Autistic adults exist and they struggle.

When I was a little girl/teen. My mom knew about my needs. For instance. I need explicit instructions. My mom knew of this when I was little and told my aunt that she has to tell me ' I want Sprite' 'I want X' when she told me to bring her some lemon and I thought lemonade. Now, as of me being an adult, she gets mad and refuses to provide this little accommodation. She is autistic like me but holds me on a neurotypical standpoint. She expects me to be able to understand cryptic instructions like Nts. 'The garbage is full' may be a request or asking you to do something to a NT but to us, it seems like a train of thought.

My mom doesn't realize that failing …
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