I'm unemployed due to my autism. I explained in a blog post how autism complicates my ability to work. It would be nice to be able to have my own money to buy what I want or save up for what I want. That would be the best thing ever. Heck, it would be nice to make some friends and hang out. It's no fun having sensory limitations. It's no fun needing to see things to understand. I decided to build my crypto blogs. I can make up to 1K on those blogs vs a crap min wage job where I wouldn't make enough to buy an Xbox.
I honestly don't see what's there to like being ridiculed because you don't see things the same way as everyone else.
I suck at adulting, I really suck at it. When something is new to me, I just don't know what to do. I feel as though my mom child shames me for it. I didn't ask to be blind in this world.
I was hated when I was in Jr. High and Highschool for being different. Kids I never even seen before hated me all of a sudden. They didn't wanna get to know me and instead listened to someone else's opinion. The only time where someone got to know me themselves is when I went to a Catholic school. These girls hated me, they told this other girl bad stuff about me and she didn't believe them and choose to get to know me herself instead of overhearing someone else's opinion. She talked to me while we were on a field trip to a play. Others just jumped the bandwagon. I just didn't fit in at that school. It was a Catholic school. I'm Christian. We don't have the same beliefs. I was a little fish in an ocean full of sharks.
It's no fun being called names by the neurotypicals because you don't understand their language.
I feel like this world is not for me. I feel like I do not belong here.
I feel as though my mom doesn't see my struggles
As of April 2019, I am back to my old doctor. There was an error and they thought I have a plan they didn't accept.
I went down south with my grandpa and I felt freer. It may have been in the middle of nowhere. It's quieter. Fewer people. a good % of my folks are there. That is what I need. Not a job where I would not have the freedom to do these things. Even if I have to save up my crypto earnings to fund future travels, I'll do it.
Also, running one blog is easier for me so I am merging articles I had on my 'gamerartist' blog onto this one just so you know. It would cost too much money hosting 2 blogs. Thanks for understanding.