I am jelly of people announcing their engagement because I know that will never be me. I am jelly of people planning their weddings because I know that won't be me. I am jelly of people getting married because, I will never see the day of me getting married, changing my last name to my partners, going on a honeymoon, etc.
It's depressing seeing couples everywhere you turn. Seeing people updating their relationship status everywhere I turn. Posting engagement photos everywhere I turn.
I have been hated for being different all through school so I never got a chance to meet anyone.
I avoid weddings as much as possible.
I do go out whenever I can but as I said only old ass men notice me but I am invisible to men my age.
I kinda feel alone in this. I kinda feel like I have to be 'normal' for someone to like me. I think my mom's ridiculous standards is also why I am single. I met a guy at Menard's. He worked there. He sold my folks some paint. My mom would not have approved of him because he was 30 and at the time I was 19. I can understand why she is strict about this. Being different people can take advantage of you and my mom wants to prevent me from making the same mistakes she made.
The way I see it if I was 15 and he was 30 I can see her not wanting that. However, I was legal again.
If I was outcasted by NTs I would socialize more. Being outcasted so many times makes me stay to myself then I can't be shunned.