I saw that I struggle to find a job due to my sensory needs and other things. I felt that is something I can talk about. Back in 2017, I went through a vocational program that I thought would help me find a job. It was a joke. They gave me a counselor that invalidated my autism and refused to listen to me and disregarded everything I said. After this, I saw that my mom's mindset changed. I saw my mom ignored and disregarded my needs. She never did that before I went through that 'program.' Then the job coach did literally nothing to help me find a job, got on my case when I didn't send out enough applications.
It's sad that my mom listens to some ignorant wanch over my pych. She did agree with him then I noticed that changed after that 'program.' It's like my mom says one thing now and another thing later.
For instance, my mom used to know that I need direct requests when we were out to dinner with my aunt. She told me to get her some lemon and I thought she meant Lemonade. She was talking about Sprite. My mom told her that she needs to be a little more direct because if you just say Lemon I'll think Lemonade. Now she disregards saying I 'don't need it' when she LITERALLY told my aunt that she needed to be direct. Look at the mind games my mom plays. And she likes to throw in my face that I have an attitude.
I felt hurt having my feelings and needs ignored and disregarded by someone I thought would understand. So I made my first video about autism. It was either 'Autism and Unemployment' or 'What not to say to someone with autism.' And I decided to make a word version of my videos, which was when I started my blog. If I can't vent to someone I thought would understand maybe I will have another ear.
I general I want my voice to be heard. For someone out there to understand and not compare me to other people with autism.