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Diaries of An Acutally Autistic- A Real Life Situation Having No Time To Process

Most people with autism need time to process things, time to respond, etc. At least with me. Unexpected changes throw us off. Think if your GPS telling you where to go and all of a sudden, it changes the route on you and you may not have time to react. That's how hard it is for us with changes. I always talk scenarios but I thought I explain a real-life situation that actually happened. I made a vlog on this topic which you can watch here.



Due to my inability to find a job, I get food stamps to help my folks somewhat. They get a limited amount of money. I saw on Facebook about proposed changes to the food stamp program, requiring people to work to get stamps. I disagree with this BECAUSE what will happen to someone who just can't get hired? What about someone who gets laid off or fired when it wasn't their fault? What about if someone gets sick/hurt and can't work anymore?
My first thought that it was fake because it's hard to know what's true or not when readi…

The Travel's That I Have Had Thus Far

This is a blog post that I am doing to show you guys the travels that I have had thus far. I am going on another getaway at the time I am writing this so I thought I'd sum up previous getaways that I have taken. Traveling is so cool to me. It makes you feel free, let's you explore.



I have only been on a few getaways in my lifetime and I'd like to take more. For this upcoming getaway, my mom has bought our bus tickets and we're getting ready. I got my phone and I am ready to make a vlog. This is so cool.

Friendship Festival (2013)

I helped out a lady who braided my hair. She has a side gig where she travels to festivals and sells things. I helped her out for a while and she let me explore the festival. I went twice. The second time I was there at night. Night traveling is cool. If where you're going is well lit. For photos or videos in that case. It was nice to get some photos of the people walking around. Having fun.
Fox River Resort (2013)

I went to Fox River with a…

Autistic And Being Misunderstood

If I got a dollar every time someone took me out of content when they could have asked me what I meant, I would have well over a million dollars. I will talk about how it's pretty common for non-autistics (or anyone really) to misunderstand us.


I could name every single instance but the blog will be too long. One instance is, my friend, posted that he was not going to be on because he was going to be busy and his data was running low. I said his health isn't worth being busy all the time. Someone who I didn't know was his mom, took me out of context and somehow read it as me expecting him to quit his job. hence her saying 'nothing in this world is free.' He said something before she came in but I forgot.

She assumed I was rich and can afford to use facebook when it's free to use. Even if I had a job I could come on during the break, before going in, coming home, on off days, etc. There is no shame in living with a roommate or your parents. TBH it's expensiv…

I Got Into A Fight At School

This will be about a time I got into a fight with a girl at school when I was a freshman in high school. This happened as a result of bullying and developing anxiety. Hang on for this one.



This happened in gym glass. We had a substitute teacher. I just want to say that the entire freshman year was awful due to bullying (verbal). I suppose all the bullying was amplified and makes it seem like being are being mean to me or talking about me when they are. I thought this girl was talking about me because the anxiety brain was telling me. Think of it as an abusive friend. In reality, the girl could have been talking about a movie she saw. I want to give you an understanding of what the anxiety brain sees vs what it actually is.

We were walking back to the gym to do the workout portion. I thought the girl was talking about me. I walked angrily towards her. I wasn't going to push her. Just sternly tell her to stop talking about me. She thought I was going to push her and she scratched me…

Things I Wish I Would Have Known

There are some things that I wish I would have known as an adult with autism. There are some things we don't know. How do you expect someone to know if you don't tell the person? I will explain some things I wish someone would have told me.




I admit I was not ready for the 'adult' world. Having to adult in a world that makes no sense is hard enough. It is tough being in a world for NTs.

I Wish I Would Have Known My Folks Would Start Depending On Me

I never expected my folks to start depending on me. I was not prepared. Remember folks with autism need a heads up. They need time to adjust, time to respond, etc. I noticed my folks started relying on me to cook, my grandpa depends on me to drive him around.  I can barely understand the world around me, I wouldn't be able to fend for myself if my folks died tomorrow, and they expect so much from me. I need to be able to handle myself before I can handle someone else.  If my folks died tomorrow, God forbid, I would be home…